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Last Memorial Day, after a somber and moving ceremony
in which the Vietnam Veterans Memorial Park was dedicated in Dayton,
Donald Ray Givens went home to Fairborn, with taps and a 21-gun salute
still ringing in his ear. He walked along into the backyard of his home
and started thinking about a lot of things
He remembered the circle of markers in the park, where his
fallen comrades were being honored and he began to think of his days and
nights, back in 1967 and 1968 when he spent 12months and 4 days with the
25th Infantry Division in Vietnam, 50 miles north of Saigon with the
combat engineers.
For Givens, who is 37, the thoughts even turned to Agent
Orange, the chemical defoliant he came into contact with in Southeast
Asia. The same chemical that in ongoing years has been blamed for
everything from cancer to birth defects, insomnia, skin disorders and
headaches among veterans. Thoughts also turned to his son Donald “Donnie”
Eugene who is 17 and his daughter Diana Lynn, who is 16, his wife Loretta
age 36 and how the Vietnam War and in his opinion Agene Orange changed
their lives into “ A Modern day Hell.”
He is not a man of words, he said, or poetry. He said he is
not good at spelling and punctuation, but that night in May, he sat down
and wrote a poem putting his heart and soul on paper. He sent it to me.
The poem was on my desk these many weeks. Monday a special
movie called Unnatural Causes about Agent Orange and a lawsuit on behalf
of its victims is scheduled to be shown at 9 p.m. on WKEF, Channel 22,
NBC-TV. Tuesday, Veterans Day, Givens and his family will once again be
on hand at 11 a.m. at the Vietnam Veterans Memorial Park with many others
to remember the supreme sacrifices. When I was dealing with that stuff in
Vietnam, there was no warning, no hint that it would spend a lifetime
haunting me, Givens said.
We were not asked to wear gas masks or protection. I am sure
they did not know what we were dealing with at the time. He said he came
home from the war and was married to Loretta in September of 1968, not
fearing any eventual medical problems. Donnie was born and then Diana, he
said both of the kids, both of them have become victims of Agent Orange.
According to Givens, both of the kids have always had a
learning problem and a behavioral problem. Donnie is super active and was
born with a blood clot on the brain. He also has bone problems and
problems with his eyes and on top of everything else has like a jungle rot
on his feet, just as I have always had since I returned from Vietnam.
Mrs. Givens said, “To give you and example of what we have had to face,
one night just out of the blue, Donnie had a seizure.
He went all to pieces in the middle of the night, and tore up
his room. After we got to him, and he settled down somewhat, he had no
idea of what had happened. It was frightening. Mrs. Givens said that her
daughter also has a learning problem, a kidney illness, and a nervous
condition that she blames on Agent Orange.
My husband came home a victim of that stuff, she said. He has
nightmares. He is depressed over 90 percent of the time. At first he
drank a lot, and then got over that. But he still is so nervous. He
always must be on the move. Mrs. Givens, said she too, has been caught up
in the problems and has become a victim of Agent Orange. I am sure it was
in Donald’s bloodstream….the chemicals… the poisons. I am sure it was
passed on to me and now it is claiming all of us, our whole family and no
one will believe us. Tears formed in her eyes as she continued talking.
It is awful, It is like this. My husband can sit and tell you about
Vietnam and the bullets and the nightmares and the chemicals. But, I can
sit here and tell you what life is really like after that war, because I
am still living in a world of Vietnam. She paused, pushed her long brown
hair back and continued, “I am only 36 years old, but I am as gray as my
dear mother who is almost 60. I have a lot of love and understanding.
That has helped me deal with a family who needs so much attention and so
much care. You have to overlook so much….because you just don’t know what
is causing this. You know we are still fighting this war, in our family,
all these years later. Won’t it ever go away?”
Givens said he has been unemployed for the past five years
because of back problems and other problems he feels were triggered by
exposure to Agent Orange. He gets workers compensation and his son gets
Social Security disability payments. “We don’t have much coming in, in
the way of money, but I am a good manager and a good provider,” said Mrs.
Givens. I make do with what I have. My kids and my husband eat well, I
take care of them the best I can.”
Written by Dale Huffman of the Dayton
Daily News Paper
The following was written by Donald
Givens, a true American and a Vietnam Veteran
THE CRIES
Fifteen some years ago,
a silver bird landed at the LA International.
A young lad of 19 walked proud in a crowd.
He stopped and kissed the ground of the good
old USA….for he was now home.
But no one seemed to care, except…
a sweet old mother and a father so proud.
Though the young lad came home
his friends knew him not.
And no one would understand
That many night he would cry,
and run from his past.
The young lad married at an early, early age
But can she understand his past
still haunts him so.
The lad now a father of two
Now cries for his own little ones.
For many night, a hospital
their home would be.
And they would cry and ask,
Why me, Daddy, Why?
How can you tell children that they
are victims,
Of that old Agent Orange?
Yes, you must know by now I am
talking of the Vietnam Vet.
Seems to me his country misused him.
And his country now should recognize him
And help him cope and to understand the cries.
The cries of the Vietnam Vet.
Written by Donald Givens
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